Missing AZ

Today has been a really hard day for me as far as wanting to go back to Arizona. I found out today that two friends of mine are being called to the places they want to be. One friend is moving to Texas where she came from and has missed so much and is so happy to be moving back and another friend is moving from Arizona back to where they want to be in Colorado. I am so happy for those families, but my heart is really heavy today because I so wish that God's plan for our family would be to return to Arizona. I feel connected to Colorado with my journey group, church, my work, etc. But there is such an emptiness that makes me feel like we are all alone here! If given the opportunity, I would move back to Arizona in a heart beat! I know that being at a lower elevation would make Brad feel better, we have so many friends there, our home church is there, my kids friends of 12 years are there, my dad is there! There are so many reasons that just make sense for us to go back!
I wanted to surprise the boys and go back to AZ for spring break, but part of me is afraid that if we do that, that when I return to CO, I will miss being there even more than I currently do!
My prayer is to be in God's will, even if that if for us to stay here, but I then pray for contentment here!
Missing AZ:(

2 weeks to go!

Well, God has provided me with the strength, peace, and comfort that I have needed to lean on Him for while Brad is away! Through Him I have successfully made it through the first week and only two more weeks to go! I am feeling much stronger because I have been praying a lot. reading His Word, journaling, and just living in the moment and enjoying my kids!
The kids and I are home today because of MLK Day and no school! I love just hanging out with my kids and just having a jammy day at home cleaning and playing! Peighton and I only have school on Wednesday and that is a field trip day. The kids and I don't have school on Friday either! Should be a fun week together!
I am blessed!

Philippians 4:6

Tomorrow will be 1 full week under my belt of Brad being away, with 2 weeks to go! The trade show was a great thing for him. He is making instant money that our family needs to survive! I am so grateful that God provided this opportunity!
I taught in the Kidz Jam ministry today at church and God just has my back wherever I go. The lesson today was about laying all your worries at the cross and talk to God about any little thing, whenever you want to! The key verse today was Philippians 4:6 where it tells us to cast all of our worries to God because He cares so deeply for us and has our best interest at heart! He listens and loves us unconditionally! He knows our heart better than what we do! It was such a great reminder for me to live in each moment of each day and let tomorrow worry about itself!
Thank you, Jesus for that lesson! It never pays to worry! I am so thankful that I am not the driver of my life! I will take the backseat to God ANY DAY!!

Heart Full of Pain

I just dropped off Brad at the airport a little while ago. I was doing okay until Peighton said "Bye, Bye, Daddy" as we pulled away. I kind of lost it! We will be without Brad for 3 weeks because he is going to work a few trade shows selling the telescoping flag pole to help us get back on our feet financially! He flew to Minnesota and will be there until the 20th and then he goes to Ohio another show until February 1st.
We have been together for 21 years, you think I would be happy getting a little break away from him, right? But my heart just hurts having him gone. I feel like a little teenager who is in that puppy love stage! I feel so sad, lost, and alone! I am so thankful that I have the kids to concentrate on and be with! I am sure this is all stemming from the horrible year we had with Brad's heart issues and all the scare that comes from that situation!
I will be leaning on God for strength, comfort, and peace, during our time apart! I will be counting the days, hours, and minutes, until he comes home! Until then, my heart is full of pain from missing Brad:(

2 Wrongs make a Right!

The other day Peighton and the coffee table had a run in and the coffee table won! Peighton immediately picked herself up off the floor, hit the table saying " No, No, Table! You Be Nice!" Should be fun teaching her that the way she handled that situation won't quite work out for her benefit in the "Real World"! Have to love her spunk though!

Distance & Time Apart Makes the Heart Grow Fonder, Right?

We just found out today that Brad has been given the opportunity to enter back into the trade show market to sell telescoping flag poles again. 2009 has been so challenging both in the health department and the financial department. He has been working at City Wide Roofing for a month now, but because it is the winter months and the slowest time of the year, no money has been made. We can't survive on nothing!
Come to find out that yesterday, Vern called Brad and told him that a mutual friend of theirs is now manufacturing his own telescoping flag pole and is looking for dealers and salesmen. Brad called up Aaron Kranz yesterday and is now flying out tomorrow to do a trade show in Minnesota this coming weekend and then a 10 day show in Ohio the following two weekends. As excited as I am about the money possibilities for our family, I am also finding myself so sad that Brad is leaving for so long! We haven't been apart this long for 7 years! It will be tough being apart and hard on the kids, too, but we need to do what is best for our family in the long run! We need to sacrifice for gain !
I have to take out my leader of the household, bill payer, handy man(handy woman), etc. hat out, dust it off, and remember how to use it right! I am so thankful that I have Preston and Paxton with me to help out and support me! I don't know if I could do it without them by my side!
It is going to be a LONG three weeks, but I know that God will be my strength, peace, and comfort while Brad is away and help me do this! I am so thankful for the support of my family and an amazing God batting in my corner! I know He doesn't give me more than I can handle and this job will benefit our family financially!
Thank you, Jesus for this opportunity! You are always there and always provide for our needs!
Brad, we will miss you like crazy cakes! Be safe and hurry home! Love you always and forever! Thank you for all the sacrifices you make to better our family! XOXOXOXO